I am getting so ramped up and ready to move right now. Making decisions about everything I own. What I’ll need for a month. What I can’t part with for storage. Not to mention all of the junk I need to donate and recycle. Honestly, I don’t know how this all happened! Where did it start? How? It’s somewhat baffling.
In the past my blogs have been very personal and I’ve had no qualms about sharing random details in my posts. But that’s not my goal here. I’m aiming to be of some value somehow. To do something for other people. Since finishing the 12 week creative recovery program (The Artist’s Way) I feel very focused and open to new creative things happening in my life. Note: Creative being anything of creation, producing and building. The times when we’re not consumers.
I’m most excited about going on this vacation because in-part it’s totally random, and also there are a lot of beautiful things I’m going to see on the way. I just trust that there are.
Trusting
I’ve been asked countless timesĀ “Why Seattle?” and the best I’ve come up with has been, “I found a place I could afford for a month there.” Also, “Why not?” Neither answer seems to fully satisfy people but the beauty of this adventure is the fact that reason is not steering the ship. My heart is. When an opportunity opened up and fit for me I had no reason not to jump right in. Staying stuck here, after losing my father just didn’t feel right. In fact, when being totally honest with myself it seems like it would be impossible NOT to act/move/do things at this time. When your goals are simply to absorb beauty and to reconnect with yourself it really doesn’t matter where you go.
But I’m going to heal. I’m going because staying doesn’t produce any internal movement. With such powerful emotions riding me through the ups and downs Seattle seemed to choose me. It was towards the bottom of my list of cities I might like to see. But now it feels completely right and I’m absolutely thrilled to see what happens.
Healing — A Choice
To continue my creative recovery I’m planning to do a lot of journaling and blogging. I just finished reading up “Globejotting” by Dave Fox . I even did a video review of the book here.
In short, I’m practicing not letting my vacation destination define what happens to me while I’m there. Traveling is such a tiny thing built up into lots of big overwhelming pieces sometimes. But in truth just choosing a destination in the future, that you can move towards, (anywhere really!) is the only part that truly matters. Any sort of movement and growth skip along hand in hand into the sunset of our dream vacation. (Oh yeah right, that vacation we’re actually going to take! Hell yeah!)
By the way I have a beautiful new TV page up for all of my book reviews. The collection should be growing steadily from now on and it’s a project I’m loving.